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I quit my day job.

I couple days ago I thought this post would be of a different flavor. I thought I would be screaming from the rooftops, “I QUIT!” I thought I would be jumping for joy. I thought I would be writing a post about how I never wanted to go “back to school” again.┬áBut instead I feel melancholy.

816 for 5 years

In reality, I couldn’t say the words “I’m leaving” without tears. It was harder than I though it would be. When it comes down to actually saying goodbye, I’m always just a pile of mush. It doesn’t matter how ready I am to leave and move on.

Thinking about all this, it hit me…in my conscious exsistence I have NEVER not gone “back to school.” Never. I went from school, to undergrad, to masters, to teaching. I don’t know what a year is without a school year governing it. And no matter how much I have been looking forward to this, it is strange and scary. Like being cut loose without a map.

the daily walk to my room

Clearing out my classroom was hard. I kept feeling like I was forgetting something. I kept looking through the same cabinets making sure I had everything. I had all my stuff. I left memories, moments, growing up, pieces of my life, and attachments to the place left behind. I loved my classroom. A room of my own. Always messy with creative projects and piles of undone grading. Always loud with shouting and laughing. Always full of questions and frustrations. Sometimes a retreat. Sometimes a mosh pit.

And I liked the routine. It was boring and I did get tired of teaching the same things five times a day for five years, but there is something to be said for blocks of time, deadlines, and structure. I got used to it and found creativity within it. Now I need to create that for myself.

empty

Okay! Enough moping! I just bought tickets to go to Europe for two months! I am excited to be starting something totally new and totally based on my passions. I am still searching for a routine that will make this all work, but it will come. I know it will.

Looking forward. What will I now be doing?

Painting and running Seek Your Course. I got an artist residency in Spain for a month. So along with backpacking through Europe with Ben I will be in Europe for two months this fall. It is going to be an amazing journey. And I will blog about every bit.

I have 8 days left to raise the rest of my funds for my residency. I am confident I will get there.

Celebrating with delish vegetables: Vegetable and Goat Cheese Chimichangas and Matt Bittman's Creamy Fried Tofu with dipping sauce and asian stir fried vegis!

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I love weekends, but I do tend to work all weekend long. Working on things I love, but going back to school on Monday always feels extra hard because of it.

This weekend was wonderful. I tend to forget to list the good things, so here is a good list for a change:

This weekend was great because the sun was shining, we cleaned the kitchen, I cooked really great food today, we hung out with friends yesterday, I finally met baby Ezra on Skype, we started watching season 1 of Glee and loved it, I had a wonderful Skype meeting with Beth Nicholls to talk about my big project and I finally made headway on the design for the project. In short, I love progress, friends and sunshine!

It feels nice to have so many good things to list.

I finally have momentum again for the big project, which is called Seek Your Course. Not quite ready to announce it yet, but it’s going to rock the world! Beth has kindly agreed to meet with my over Skype to mentor me, especially regarding the business side of the project. She has been such a great help and has had wonderful feedback that has really helped me shape my plan and execution. Wish I could attend the first Do What You Love retreat next month. Maybe next year. YOU can still sign up!

Another friend, Cheryl Burke, has been helping me with the designing. She has such a great way of thinking through design and color. Finally got to start working on the stuff we went over last time we met. It’s been tough getting back into the swing of things after our trip, but this weekend was definitely a good push forward. Can’t wait to show Cheryl what I worked on today! You all will see it soon too.

first grilling of the season

I am still having a lovely time in Beth’s Do What You Love and Susannah’s Unraveling eCourses. It’s been really helpful to have so many posts urging me to examine where I come from, am now, and am heading. So many changes and things to think about. It is the perfect time for these courses and I am thankful for the beautiful people who share their lives in order to help everyone else think about life in a new way.

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sign of a good snow day

I always try to fit too much into a day. I woke up this morning with a full to-do list slated for my snow day. I actually bargined with the clouds last night (if you dump enough snow for a snow day I promise I will take down the Christmas tree and do laundry). The clouds held up their side of the bargain, but I did not.

berry flax seed pancakes before ben went to work

The laundry is not my fault. The washer is stuck on the final spin cycle and won’t fill, so I’m off the hook there (although I suppose I should have done more to try to fix it). The tree (yes, it is still up. i love it.) is totally my fault. I still might get to it. Or it might wait for me until Saturday.

drying tea bags for wax experiments

I also have a to do list a mile long of stuff to do on my computer (of course, I am now blogging instead!), but I chose to not turn on the computer this morning to fit in some painting time. After a lovely snowshoe through the winter wonderland and a breakfast of berry pancakes and smoothies I was preparing to do battle with my to do list when my husband suggested I start with blocking off some time for painting. “Go paint! By inspired!” he said. So I got lost in painting…all day.

well, painting and eating all day

I only did one little painting, but I took a first step in mixing colors. I tend to just use colors and never mix them. I know this is a weakness so I’ve signed up for a color mixing class in June and bought a couple books on color. But I’ve also been struggling with finding a palette that I like, so today I got out one of my color books (this one to be exact) and started melting and mixing wax. I ended up with a palette of colors that I think are a good start.

Now as I grumpily complain about my lack of progress on my to do lists, my wonderful husband tells me not to think of my day as a failure but to focus on the things I got to do. He tells me that I sounded so happy on the phone today and so to focus on how happy painting made me feel. He’s just full of good advice today.

olives look like eggs

food just tastes better when it gets all over your hands too...love eating with my hands

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